My mind has known for a long time now… at least a good year and half, maybe even more… that my heart needed to let go of you. Recent events, have should me, how much I let out my heart for others, and that’s OK That is who I am, when in jail for those 28 days, I found my self the last week in an area where I could give to others… what you give out, is what you get back. I give my heart, I love completely and love really forever…. and that’s OK Cause I like my heart, I like that I can love that much, that I can empathize with others, I can feel their happiness, their love their pain… that is who I am.
I am not going to make excuses for being me anymore. Maybe it takes my heart awhile to see you are not being up front with me. That you made up this whole story, and then you did it again. Maybe nothing about any of it from your point was real, except that you carried for me. That I know was real, I know that I touched your heart… that’s what I do, I touch hearts… I give my self, I love completely… and that’s OK I like being that person, so I say to all of you who do not understand, who call me names, put me down, trying to make me hurt even more.. I say, it doesn’t matter, I will still always be the person who loves…. who gives from deep inside my soul.
And as far as the people I have touched, I know they know this, and that is what makes them remember me, love me, they take a little bit from me, and I give it freely…. I am strong, way stronger than I ever give myself credit for. It is time to remember that when I feel the hurts, cuz others can only give what they have to give. I can not expect them to know how to give love the way I do, it is a unique quality not many have. I treasurer it, and use it to love you!